so here's back to gtown--I've missed it so much

so far so so

mixed feelings; we'll see what happens

its so good to see everyone

but that's what makes it even harder

rain hasn't helped any today

maybe tomorrow will be better

so I found this list of things I should do

doesn't say when:

travel europe, find love, have a successful job, adopt a child, own several pets, and marry an intelligent, sweet, kind, caring, Godly, successful, stubborn, funny, laid-back, good-looking man

interesting

so this is the final day in my first week of work... working where? w/my dad

doing what? I have no clue... I just checkmark things and listen to him while he talks on the phone...

so it sucks, but maybe it'll be worth it

I just don't want to be gone all summer away from home and georgetown

this weekend hopefully will be fun cause a certain someone is coming home... I'm excited if all I end up doing is sitting around in her room talking about the past year

but I really want to go shopping--clothes have been thrown in a pile of things I don't wear which is amazing cause half of them don't fit from the beginning of this year (or they're just ugly haha)

anyway I must email my teacher about hopefully her changing my grade...

finally I see why I'm completely done with boyd county--obnoxious girls that won't understand how uncool they really are until they get away from home, people that think that by sticking out they make themselves unique but actually just add to their uhappiness and selfconsciousness, and of course the same old sluts...

I mean come on... I've never understood why there has to be so much drama and attention getting

oh well

I'm gone and moved on and happy so its for the better

I think I've come to the conclusion as to why I never find nice guys to date

I don't want a relationship

I want to have something so close to one but once it comes down to it I don't want that commitment

oops... so maybe that's why they're so inevitable to fail

why am I starting something with the best guy in the entire world with two days of seeing him before summer left? my goodness... what's wrong with me?

he'll only  be two hours away though, and I know he'd love to visit me in his spare time, but do I really want that? yes...

I don't understand, its so complicated and things have moved so fast but I really really do like him